stepping outside

so many people will do anything and everything to avoid an awkward situation.  especially introverts i think, since those seem to come more easily to us.

at this point i am reaffirming that my primary goal in life is not to avoid awkward moments or discomfort.  and that it's even ok to acknowledge them.  let it be so.

(actually, not just a reaffirmation, but a reminder--no--command for myself.)

scattered thoughts of a lone wolf

not to self-deprecate or say that i'm bad company, but sometimes hanging out with myself gets old.

i'm going to be sick if i hear one more person tell me that i'll never be alone.

i'm glad for God's company, even though it can't and isn't meant to replace human company.  that was part of design.

maybe, just maybe, i can be that friend for someone else.

i'll admit i'm picky, but it's nice to give someone joy just by being there, being me.

God, I want so badly for You to be the one thing that completely fulfills me, that removes my need and desire for anything else.