shocking!

seriously.

there are two different kinds of shock that i know of.

one is when you hear or discover something that is a total surprise.  you never would have thought that it would happen, so when it does, you're just like, "WHAT???"  but it's news, and it's real.

the other kind is when you hear or discover something that really isn't all that surprising.  maybe you even knew it would happen.  but when it actually becomes a reality, it's so surreal that it's unbelievable.  when that happens (at least for me) it doesn't sink in until later.  you're more like, "nope.  this isn't happening.  it's all a dream, and tomorrow i will wake up and all will be normal again."  but it's not.

i discovered the second variety almost a year ago.  but still, when it happens, it feels so weird.

i feel... nothing?  yet.