...and that concludes that norm...

Danica came back from college!  i was so excited.  well, she was about to take her last final, which was in my English teacher's classroom (which was almost completely normal), but on a Saturday.  who takes a final on a Saturday? [shhh!!! you college students and graduates!!!  i'm telling the story!]  but whatever.  effectively she was done.

i heard she was not planning on coming home to Clovno (that's Clovis-and-Fresno-ish area) at all, but was instead going to get married to her boyfriend, whom none of us (including her family) had ever met.  and they were moving far-ish away. (btw, we all lived on the coast, but i think maybe she was moving to a different part of coast.  or something.)  and Alyssa (and Ryan too, i assume) was (were) moving to southern California.  i was really sad.  and disappointed.  and bummed, because i thought they cared more about us Clovnoans.  *dramatic uncontrollable weeping*

later, some other people and i were on the beach at night.  and there was this crazy lightning storm.  INSANE LIGHTNING!!! i don't think it was raining though.  IT WAS AMAZING!!!  i REALLY wanted to take a picture (or a few), but i realized i didn't have any camera with me.  and i was sad.  the end.

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this morning i woke up and i felt really bummed out.  and i asked myself why.  and i answered that i was too insecure too much of the time.  and i asked myself why.  and i was going to answer the normal "because i'm paranoid," but instead i looked for a different answer.  so i found one and said "because i've been looking in the wrong places for acceptance/value/love."  both answers are true.  but i think the second answer will help me more.

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by the way, have i mentioned yet how SUPER-LY EXCITED i am that it is summer???  well, aside from the fact that the central valley is a desert...

i probably shouldn't try to blog anything even slightly serious when i have this much mental energy, but whatever.