rusty

whew, i am out of practice at this. remember when i used to create more than i consumed? but i have had the longest writer's block in history, and so it has helped to edit and publish some of the 100+ drafts littering my home page. i think in some ways, it's good for me to return to old writings from the perspective of being on the other side of them, with a mind less prone to being unraveled by doing so. i may do more soon. some of them are EXTREMELY cringey, so that'll be fun--but i'll try not to be too judgmental, and i hope if anyone reads it, they will be kind enough to do the same. anything i end up publishing here gets there because it mattered, and feels disingenuous to omit. and it still matters--the writing, i mean. though naturally the way i process through things, and the frequency with which it is necessary for me to do so, have changed somewhat over time. i keep telling myself that i will try not to hoard imperfect drafts anymore, and instead just publish them while they are still relevant. we'll see how i do from here on out.