blessings

i'm so tired.  the sadness hit me today, pretty much when i least expected it.  it starts.

yet, i'm so blessed.  seriously.  i can't believe it.  it's like God had a bag of blessings, and then he couldn't decide how to bless me, so he just dumped out the entire bag.  on top of my head.  unbelievable.

i'm so overwhelmed by the people God has placed in my life.  i honestly don't understand.  for one thing, i have an amazing family who loves and supports each other.

but tonight i'm especially thankful for my church family.  my church is such an amazing base of support and encouragement and wisdom and love.  even unintentionally so.  it brings me joy every time i see them.  not only that, but over time they've shown me God in ways i had never before experienced.  i highly doubt many of them realize how much they mean to me.  i would not just trust them with my life, but i would trust them to be good stewards with any information they knew about it, or about me.  and i would trust pretty much anything they taught me about life or about God (so long as it didn't contradict that which i knew to be true, which it wouldn't).  they have brought meaning to the phrase "church family."

thinking over it again, sitting there in the dark with all these people and their prayers surrounding me would have been my #1 choice of places to fall apart anyway.