wind tag: Elpis to help us

no feelings are the best of all because they are safe.  they'll
never threaten to misguide,
or ever backstab;
forever constantly sustained, and
protection from all pain.
having known a joy is slightly better than knowing you had never known it,
but what if you never knew
how much you had missed?
ignorant bliss.

yet what could be worse than apathy about the thing you craved the most?
if you woke up one morning to see that the sun didn't light up your face when it rose?
or has there really ever been light at all?  perhaps everything really has always been
dark and cold and lonely,
and the rest was only a dream.

or maybe it was real.
it was so beautiful,
and then i realized my fears that it wasn't for me.
not for my eyes, nor my ears, nor any senses.
the feelings were all mine, but not the experiences.

but it was all real.  a dream that came true, miraculously mine, but later lost.  or perhaps just misplaced?

teasing, infuriating is the middle ground, the sound
of that which may be, but you can't be sure.
maybe it's meant to be,
maybe just in reach,
or it may be that it will simply be torn again, leaving you
with your security breached; worn and broken.
the mystery beckons like the cat in the box,
but you can't reckon until it unlocks and opens.
then, for better or worse, it will be unleashed--
whether blessing or curse, beautiful letdown or painful confirmation,
regardless--revealing there was only ever
one Hope for all of man.