spring fever

i have it bad this year.  hehehe...

it seems like usually when i write here, it's when i have some kind of problem or issue to work through.  but that doesn't seem right, since that doesn't represent my mood most of the time.  i think it's because it's a lot easier for me to describe reasons why i'm stressed or sad than it is to describe why i'm happy or excited.

today can be different.

i'm not entirely sure what it is.  maybe spring break.  maybe the awesome weather i've been enjoying more than normal.  maybe spending time with friends just playing outside this past weekend.  maybe the special worship service we're doing for Easter.  maybe the fact that it looks like things are starting to get organized and come together a little.  maybe the possibility that i won't have to take summer school this year.  maybe awesome music and chords and creativity.  maybe going for a bike ride for the first time in a long while.  maybe sharing music with different people.  maybe browsing the MeTubes and University Wikipedius and finding out about bands and albums i didn't know existed.  maybe writing music.  maybe playing music, being the one on the learning end of the spectrum.  maybe just feeling (and being) highly valued, though i'm not really sure why.

it's probably all of those.  the past few days, i've just been feeling generally more free and happy and excited than usual.  actually, i'm pretty sure this time off has a lot to do with it.

i'm so excited for summer!  ^.^  for several reasons.  spring break is a tease though.

i know i'm not quite "there" yet, wherever that is.  the knowledge that these next weeks will probably be more stressful than ever still lurks in the recesses of my brain.  but at least i can take a breather for a little bit.  and spend a few days in a schedule that feels more natural to me.  =)